About Karoline's Healing Journey

Gifts Discovered Along my Healing Journey

I would like to begin by acknowledging all of the “earth angels” (in all their forms) whom I have encountered along the way. Thank you for teaching me through your wisdom, or by helping me to discover my own. 

Each detail of this journey I share with you has significance in terms of where I have been, what I have learned, and how it has led me towards this incredible adventure of healing for myself and others. I share openly so you may find hope that the physical and emotional pain you've carried from past experiences does not have to play itself out in your future. 

I am honored to serve on the frontiers of health and well-being and am passionate about restoring wellbeing in ways that are most meaningful to you. 

Energy medicine had a profound impact in my life and my health, before I even understood what it was. Although the techniques which I am certified in may be new to you, they are not new. Many of the treatment modalities which I use are backed by modern science and decades of clinical application and refinement. I am honored to serve those seeking a path towards health and well-being. 

Who am I - Professional Background:

Bachelor's Degree - Nursing

I have been, and continue to work, on the leading edge of health and wellness.  Early in my professional career I worked as a Nursing Consultant with the largest Canadian medical sales company - Trudell Medical. I was instrumental in launching "birthing beds" into hospitals in BC, Alberta and Saskatchewan back in the mid 80's. Birthing bed in hospitals is now the norm, but back in the 80s it was a tough sell. The "belief" back then was that it was too dangerous (in comparison to giving birth on a surgical delivery table) because "what if the doctor dropped the baby on the floor" during the delivery. Ask any midwife, that belief wasn't based in any truth, nor in the mother or infant's well-being.

During my work in Public Health in the mid 90s, I was actively involved in working with community coalitions who were advocating for "smoke-free workplaces" -- which is now the norm in North America. Did you know there were over 7,000 published scientific research studies on the harmful effects of second-hand smoke, but it was only through citizens demanding better, that laws began to change? 

Of course, our understanding of what creates health continues to evolve ... 

I also worked as: 

• CRH Director of Population Health, which focused on primary prevention -- the conditions that either support health or the development of illness (e.g. education, social support systems, lifestyle, income, etc.) 

  • Decades later, we now know that genes only account from 5-10% genetic expression

  • Epigenetics, including the cellular environment in the body (e.g. from stress), and the impact of our ancestry on our genetic expression. Indeed, the emotional wounds of our ancestors are passed down and affect our DNA's expression. 

    • I have training in modalities which can identify, and clear, emotional wounds passed down through your ancestry

• AHS Provincial Manager of Healthy Child & Youth Development - much of this work was focused on nutrition and physical activity 

  • Scientific research from the late 1990s, which confirmed the impact of Adverse Childhood Events (ACEs), was something I was not aware of until later in my career when I began learning about emotional "trauma". 

    • Did you know that what happens to a child during their developmental years, plays out decades later? Things are happening on a cellular level that change your biology that are NOT apparent on the outside. Plus, there is a direct relationship between ACEs scores and the development of Auto-immune disease. 

      • The body remembers, and the nervous system remains on high alert. 

        • The average person carries over 300 unprocessed emotions. 

        • 80% of physical symptoms have an emotional component to them! 

      • Your subconscious mind is like the hard drive of a computer which has been infected by "emotional viruses". Just like a computer, stuck programs in your subconscious mind can be rebooted -- creating space for new and empowering programs to be downloaded. 

    • I have training and certifications in modalities which identify and clear emotional wounds from your past and present circumstances. Plus, you DON'T have to remember or relive any of those experiences in order to release them from your body and nervous system and start to heal. 

      • These modalities work on animals as well! 

• AHS Emergency Management Officer - 

 About me - Personal Background 

Childhood: Laying the Foundation

I was the first born of parents who immigrated from Europe. Both had endured hardship and neither one had an education or spoke English. We were definitely on the poor side, but our needs for food and shelter were always met. Dad was self-employed as a painter, and I still vividly remember winters where there was no work, and all the stress from no income. I don't know how we survived!

We all lived in fear of my dad’s anger and rage. There were constant reminders from my mom that we had to behave a certain way so dad wouldn’t blow up. I learned early on to be a people-pleaser and perfectionist to try and create safety in my life. With that came chronic worry and hypervigilance. 

I have a younger brother who received special privileges simply because he was a male. The implied message early on was women were not valued nor respected. This belief still plays out in my life sometimes as not being deserving or worthy. However, my brother was also the recipient of my dad’s rage and as a young child I often witnessed him being beaten. I felt so helpless and lived in fear that someday it could happen to me - thus the need to be the good girl and speaking up was dangerous. I did not appreciate the significance and impact of those early childhood experiences until just a few years ago. It wasn't until a few years ago that I realized I do not remember my childhood -- I had mistaken family photographs for actual memories. 

I had allergies and eczema; I was anxious and a compulsive nail-biter. Being painfully shy, petite and having a delicate build, resulted in me always being the last to be picked for any type of team sports. I was teased for my looks and had little confidence. Most things in life took a great deal of courage. My default belief was “I can’t” -- which was a belief that was mirrored to me by my mother -- and continued well into adulthood.

Even though I did well in school, English was not easy for me. Reading and education were not valued in our home, just physical hard work. I never imagined being anything other than a housewife.

Living in Stuckness and Repeating Patterns

My first love was wonderful and sweet, but I had a great deal of difficulty believing a cute guy like that would be attracted to me. Life was starting to feel good! However, at one point he was unfaithful to me. I excused it, for reasons I didn’t understand then, but I do now. In the end, it didn’t work out. I was heartbroken. I escaped to Europe for a year. It was an incredible year and my world expanded in so many lovely ways. The tears this time were because I was so sad to see that incredible experience end.

When I returned from Europe, I met the man (MI) whom I would eventually marry and who would father my children. I looked up to MI because he was educated and "appeared" to be a person with high morals – I trusted him. MI believed in me and encouraged me to pursue an education. That made my father very angry with me because in his opinion I was quitting a good paying secure job in order to do so. A few years later, when I graduated from nursing school, there were few job opportunities for new grads. However, my education led me down a fascinating career path well outside of traditional front-line nursing! 

MI had high expectations around self-improvement and personal growth -- indeed important goals, but the process became manipulative. I was treated with disrespect and all manner of put downs under the guise of what he felt I needed to do in order to be a better person. When I would try to speak up and defend myself, he was quick to turn it around making it quite clear how it was all my fault (gas lighting) -- and speaking up would not be tolerated.

It was an on and off again dating relationship for 10 years; we couldn’t live with each other, or without. I was approaching the age of 30 and we both wanted to start a family. We mistakenly believed marriage would fix things – that was so naïve. Our toxic relationship continued because "I knew how to be that wife" -- the one who lives in victimhood -- because it had been so well role modeled to me.

Our first-born child came along 11 months later. She cried inconsolably and wouldn’t sleep. According to the medical experts she was a just a "high-needs" baby. In the decades following it was eventually understood that the fetus is bathed in the chemical soup composed of the stress hormones the mother is experiencing. A number of months ago that really hit me emotionally, as I reflect on the challenges she has experienced in her life. I struggle to forgive myself for unknowingly having put her through that. I try to have compassion for myself, knowing I did the best I could with the situation I found myself in at the time, but it still breaks my heart.

We had already been living apart for months and were in the process of obtaining a legal separation, when baby # 2 was conceived. Instead of joy, I experienced shame and embarrassment. I felt defeated and hopeless and all I could see was how the pregnancy would keep me tied to the emotional prison of my marriage. However, in that experience I discovered a great deal of empathy and compassion for the desperation experienced by women of far lesser means than I, when faced with an unplanned pregnancy.

When my son was born, I felt love come back into my life – love like I had never know before. As a newborn, he experienced chronic ear infections and received ongoing rounds of antibiotics, which was the standard of medical care back then. Modern medicine did not yet have an understanding of the damage antibiotics cause to the microbiome. Consequently, as an adult he still suffers will asthma and some life-threatening food allergies. Much of it has improved greatly since doing bio-energetic treatments on him. 

However, that led to one of those pivotal days when a friend at church said it looked like he was suffering from an ear infection. Defeated I thought "oh no, not again"! She suggested a chiropractor might be able to help. Initially I was horrified at the thought of taking my baby to a chiropractor, but I was desperate. By then, 6 months of antibiotics had not improved the situation at all. But, I swear, with one chiropractic visit the issue was fully resolved because it actually addressed the “root cause” drainage issue, and not merely the symptom. It has been more than 30 years since then, and he has never experienced another ear infection – ever! It increased my awareness of the limits of modern medicine, which does not have all of the answers, and opened the door to my interest in non-traditional approaches and treatments to support health, wellness and healing.

My marriage was doomed from early on. We tried marriage counseling, etc. without much success. I was in victim mode, people-pleaser, poor boundaries, and somehow believed that my needs mattered less, or perhaps I didn’t deserve better (to be loved, cared for, protected, etc.). My inner world was chaotic and I was miserable.

I sought the counsel of a local Church leader who instructed me to stick it out and told me, “my reward would be in heaven”. I confided in another church leader (who had a better understanding of the toxic dynamics of our marriage), who told me to “get out of there as fast as you can Karoline!” I won’t delve into more details of this relationship to protect my children but would share them privately if helpful to others going through similar experiences.